Today is Easter and we went to church with my Mom. They had a little musical drama which was nice because the church was dark and cold and there was lots of singing. Weston slept through it all which is a good thing for a 7 week old. After church we went to eat. You know the normal everybody every place story.
This morning I woke up in a little mood. I just feel put out because tomorrow is the day I have to had my baby off to someone. I know Renee will do a wonderful job and I am thankful that he will not have to go into day care, but still. I was also in a mood because I went to bed worrying about how Steve and I seem to be running in our own little circles trying to get things done. I was bummed because it is very important to stay connected to my husband. I love him and miss him. Well guess what was waiting for me in the baby's crib this morning a big ol Easter basket. As hard as he as been busting his but to fix my Moms AC , not getting home until late and all. He still stopped and got me cards (one from Weston) and a basket of goodies. He is a very good husband. He always seems to know when I need a little pick me up.
Got to love him and I DO
Happy Easter all
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Going back
The time I knew would come too soon has. Today is Saturday the day before Easter and on Monday I have to be back at work. There is six million things I need to do but I don't want to do any of them. I did make myself pack the sitters box this morning and yesterday I spent time shopping for baby things for the sitters house, but mostly I just sit on this damn computer researching things that I want to make for me and the baby. Trying to figure out when I will have the time all the while knowing I would have plenty of time if I just get off this damn computer. I know I am just avoiding because I am sad and because I am easily distracted.
I am also lonely as Steve is at my Mom's working on the AC he was there all last weekend as well. I read in all theses magazines how it is so important to have couple time, but I wonder how we will pull it off. I know I can always find the time but Steve has a harder time letting things that need to get done go. Of course he could not let the AC go as it will be way hot really soon and mom needs an AC. Of course being the worrier that I am I worry that there will never be us time.
Speaking of time I am also trying to find how to have some me time. Of course I never feel like I do not have time as I make it a priority. I always find time to read , watch tv or sit on the computer, but I am talking away from home time. I rejoined the Y and they have child care so that is not the issue it is that the classes I want to take are at night and I live so far out that I would have to drive back into town. But no matter I can still swim and work on the tread mill. I think if I go into town two nights a week that will be ok, if not maybe one. If gas prices stay low it will be ok.
I am also lonely as Steve is at my Mom's working on the AC he was there all last weekend as well. I read in all theses magazines how it is so important to have couple time, but I wonder how we will pull it off. I know I can always find the time but Steve has a harder time letting things that need to get done go. Of course he could not let the AC go as it will be way hot really soon and mom needs an AC. Of course being the worrier that I am I worry that there will never be us time.
Speaking of time I am also trying to find how to have some me time. Of course I never feel like I do not have time as I make it a priority. I always find time to read , watch tv or sit on the computer, but I am talking away from home time. I rejoined the Y and they have child care so that is not the issue it is that the classes I want to take are at night and I live so far out that I would have to drive back into town. But no matter I can still swim and work on the tread mill. I think if I go into town two nights a week that will be ok, if not maybe one. If gas prices stay low it will be ok.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
On bed rest Dec. 8 2008
Dec 5 2008
As you all know I am on bed rest and at first it was very hard and poor Steve received many a teary panicked depressed calls at work. Of course the hormones did not help. I was not worried about my health or the babies, as most people assume. Now don't get me wrong of course I have the normal mom to be worries, but after the amino and all the many checks I have because of the complication the baby is always healthy and developing as a baby should.
Bed rest is hard on me and I guess many people is that it is lonely, there is money and insurance worries because of missing work and feeling guilty because I am not able to do any thing like cook, clean, shop, take care or the horses, laundry or doing any thing to get ready for the baby and worrying that Steve would become resentful because of all the extra required of him. I also don't like that I am getting so out of shape! Not that I was in good shape but I was ok, by the time this is over I will just be a big blob of jello! I also miss being out and about pregnant! I like all the comments people make and being pregnant is much better than being fat!! Everyone tells you how cute you are all the time. I love that! I also have to keep in touch with school and my substitute so she knows what to do.
My biggest worries at this time far as the pregnancy goes are that I am not gaining weight. I always ask and they always say all is fine. Of course it looks like I am gaining a ton of weight but it is mostly baby, I estimate that I have only gained about 12 or so pounds so far. It looks and feels like a lot more but that is what the scale says. My Dr told me that I would probably not gain too much weight with this pregnancy because I started out over weight So that is a good thing because 10 of the 12 pounds I gained in the 1st trimester, and I thought oh I am going to be 250 before this is all over. I know now I will gain more because this is the time of big baby growth.
I am also now starting to worry about the actual birth process. Because of the complication the Dr has been getting me used to the idea of a c section. Well I am used to that idea, seems a lot easier, but now it seems that the complication which is Placenta Prvia is now correcting itself so now I have to think about labor and delivery.
So what do I do on bed rest everyday? Well I am on modified bed rest so I can sit up and prop up, I am not aloud to stand too much or lift any thing. I should only sit up for two hours at a time and then lie down or rest propping up. I am working on learning to quilt. I bought a baby quilt kit (all the fabric and the directions), and a new sewing machine. (Which I paid for by not driving for a month, which in my truck saved me over 400 in gas money). I have not started the baby quilt yet. I am afraid I am going to mess it up, s I been practicing on a small Christmas wall hanging, and some cat appliqué pillows for the babies room. So I spend some of my sitting up time working on that. I also bought some books on quilting which I read during down time. I also spend too much time on line! But lately that has been cut down because of backaches, It seems moving the mouse is too much for my jello muscles. I try not to watch too much TV until evening time. Some times when I am feeling bad however I will do a marathon TV day. Other reading I have been doing is on cooking for once a month. I bought a cookbook (not the greatest) on how to shop and organize to cook all day one day a month for the whole month. I love cooking but there is just not always time to come up with a lot of different things after work so this is really interesting to me. I have figured out how I can cook some nights with out standing too much. The crock pot is great and sometimes I can sit and assemble like when I made a bunch of pork tamales.
As you all know I am on bed rest and at first it was very hard and poor Steve received many a teary panicked depressed calls at work. Of course the hormones did not help. I was not worried about my health or the babies, as most people assume. Now don't get me wrong of course I have the normal mom to be worries, but after the amino and all the many checks I have because of the complication the baby is always healthy and developing as a baby should.
Bed rest is hard on me and I guess many people is that it is lonely, there is money and insurance worries because of missing work and feeling guilty because I am not able to do any thing like cook, clean, shop, take care or the horses, laundry or doing any thing to get ready for the baby and worrying that Steve would become resentful because of all the extra required of him. I also don't like that I am getting so out of shape! Not that I was in good shape but I was ok, by the time this is over I will just be a big blob of jello! I also miss being out and about pregnant! I like all the comments people make and being pregnant is much better than being fat!! Everyone tells you how cute you are all the time. I love that! I also have to keep in touch with school and my substitute so she knows what to do.
My biggest worries at this time far as the pregnancy goes are that I am not gaining weight. I always ask and they always say all is fine. Of course it looks like I am gaining a ton of weight but it is mostly baby, I estimate that I have only gained about 12 or so pounds so far. It looks and feels like a lot more but that is what the scale says. My Dr told me that I would probably not gain too much weight with this pregnancy because I started out over weight So that is a good thing because 10 of the 12 pounds I gained in the 1st trimester, and I thought oh I am going to be 250 before this is all over. I know now I will gain more because this is the time of big baby growth.
I am also now starting to worry about the actual birth process. Because of the complication the Dr has been getting me used to the idea of a c section. Well I am used to that idea, seems a lot easier, but now it seems that the complication which is Placenta Prvia is now correcting itself so now I have to think about labor and delivery.
So what do I do on bed rest everyday? Well I am on modified bed rest so I can sit up and prop up, I am not aloud to stand too much or lift any thing. I should only sit up for two hours at a time and then lie down or rest propping up. I am working on learning to quilt. I bought a baby quilt kit (all the fabric and the directions), and a new sewing machine. (Which I paid for by not driving for a month, which in my truck saved me over 400 in gas money). I have not started the baby quilt yet. I am afraid I am going to mess it up, s I been practicing on a small Christmas wall hanging, and some cat appliqué pillows for the babies room. So I spend some of my sitting up time working on that. I also bought some books on quilting which I read during down time. I also spend too much time on line! But lately that has been cut down because of backaches, It seems moving the mouse is too much for my jello muscles. I try not to watch too much TV until evening time. Some times when I am feeling bad however I will do a marathon TV day. Other reading I have been doing is on cooking for once a month. I bought a cookbook (not the greatest) on how to shop and organize to cook all day one day a month for the whole month. I love cooking but there is just not always time to come up with a lot of different things after work so this is really interesting to me. I have figured out how I can cook some nights with out standing too much. The crock pot is great and sometimes I can sit and assemble like when I made a bunch of pork tamales.
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