Going back

The time I knew would come too soon has. Today is Saturday the day before Easter and on Monday I have to be back at work. There is six million things I need to do but I don't want to do any of them. I did make myself pack the sitters box this morning and yesterday I spent time shopping for baby things for the sitters house, but mostly I just sit on this damn computer researching things that I want to make for me and the baby. Trying to figure out when I will have the time all the while knowing I would have plenty of time if I just get off this damn computer. I know I am just avoiding because I am sad and because I am easily distracted.

I am also lonely as Steve is at my Mom's working on the AC he was there all last weekend as well. I read in all theses magazines how it is so important to have couple time, but I wonder how we will pull it off. I know I can always find the time but Steve has a harder time letting things that need to get done go. Of course he could not let the AC go as it will be way hot really soon and mom needs an AC. Of course being the worrier that I am I worry that there will never be us time.

Speaking of time I am also trying to find how to have some me time. Of course I never feel like I do not have time as I make it a priority. I always find time to read , watch tv or sit on the computer, but I am talking away from home time. I rejoined the Y and they have child care so that is not the issue it is that the classes I want to take are at night and I live so far out that I would have to drive back into town. But no matter I can still swim and work on the tread mill. I think if I go into town two nights a week that will be ok, if not maybe one. If gas prices stay low it will be ok.